It was the same spot, the same feeling and the same circumstances. It is all coming back to me like a replay. My heart aches, my mind clouded and I think of running to God. Will he accept me? Will he deliver me. I found myself taking the easy road and running back to you is safer than continuing.
I tire, I cannot hold on any longer. The weight of the universe must have been dumped on me.
I cry, I wail and wipe my tears. Then this morning I thought to myself, "that was the place you were before, why do you want to go back there?" If the answer is that it is an easy way out, then I must stay put and fight on. Hate to repeat history when I have no control of you or the world. I have no control of even myself.
This journey hurts, its tough its hard, I am failing but my faith is still here. I must seek deeper. Things will get better.